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Post partum depression has derailed me again a year after the birth of my twins. I'm really struggling to get anything done or care about anything. I find I just can't find any kind of liking for the homeschool life despite have a firm conviction to homeschool. I am really struggling to find anything positive about life right now. Please say a few prayers for me... I have no idea what a mother is supposed to do after so many years of being commited to homseschooling, I find I really hate/dislike being with the kids and can't stand to teach anything. I think I must be crazy. I have never felt this amount of loathing before?!
Oh, I could keep venting but I'd rather not and just ask for some prayers for a change of heart. I am praying but it feels very dry. 
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Praying, Mrs. B! 
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Praying for you - for change of heart as you mention and healing too, for the physical part of post partum depression. Have you been doing anything to help address that part of the depression? I know there are ladies here with personal experience and possible helps.
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Praying for you...was depressed years ago when my oldest 3 were babies. Since your children are young...maybe just taking time to play, to watch movies, and to read stories and to listen to stories on tape would be enough. Maybe reading about unschooling? I have found over the years that I feel overwhelmed if I start to feel I have to school like traditional schools.
Reflecting back, I wish that I would have told my doctor how I felt so that I could have gotten some help. I sort of muddled through on my own. Hormones can do so much to flip your emotions all over the place.
Again, praying for all of your intentions!
Hugs...
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Praying for you here Mrs. B. Please, please consider talking with your OB/gyn or midwife. It's important that postpartum depression be cared for and treated, for your own sake and also for the sake of your family. You're not alone in what you are experiencing. There are people who care and want to help, but you need to reach out and honestly share what you've been going through. I will be praying for you in a special way. 
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Many prayers for you. I suffered many years ago(13) and my physician, patient man he was, every time he would see me, would gently suggest I try some meds. I refused until I could not stand myself any more. Within 2 weeks I felt so much better! I hugged him and thanked him profusely next time I was in the office.
I only took them for about 6 months. I have never gone back on them. He explained it as a chemical issue in the brain and that I probably needed a "kickstart."
Just letting you know my experience so you can be open to it if it is recommended. I was so stubborn and in a way wish I was open to it earlier.
Do some fun school to get through. Field trips. Sign kids up for some classes and just try to find some down time for you, I lived for the one hour my ds was in gymnastics, he was happy and getting tired out. I would just sit in the lobby, watch, nurse dd, and veg out. I also used the library staff/classes, and nearby childrens museum. It was our "unschooling" stint until I got myself together 
Hang in there, find a little relief(you sound burnt out actually ), and know you are covered in prayer!
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Praying for you, Mrs. B!
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Adding prayers here
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Praying!
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Twins take a LOT out a Mama, especially if you're nursing! After our twins I felt the same spiritual dryness, for a while it felt like I was SO, SO distracted and why bother praying, though I wanted to feel it in my heart I.just.didn't. I hope you can find what will give you the needed kickstart to get back to feeling a little more alive. Again, twins take so much out of you, and the hormone are different than with a singleton, etc.. Are you taking enough vitamins and eating well and drinking enough fluids? Those can make a big difference, as can this time of year, my Dr. told me it's the prime time of year for vitamin deficiencies to rear their head and cause symptoms like you're experiencing. I found like mentioned by others that the time of the first couple of years after the twins we needed to do more unschooling, and allow ourselves just to learn to live again in a new way, being okay with less schooling, and more family time, etc. Will pray for you!
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Praying in empathy.
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Yes you should still be taking a high quality pre-natal type of vitamin, especially magnesium, B-complex and D.
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Praying for you. Depression is a hard place to be especially when homeschooling. You might check out a few of these posts. I have way too much experience with depression.
Depression and the homeschool mom
depression
Getting a handle on homeschool burnout
Homeschool burnout
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Having been a veteran of PPD 4 times now...I would strongly encourage you to contact the Pope Paul VI Institute. They can treat you over the phone! No going to doctors office visits--which was crucial for me at the time--I could barely shower let alone get out of the house.
Dr. Hilgers has a strong belief in treating PPD with progesterone...bio-identical, not synthetic. He also has other ideas up his sleeve...but I really like their approach. They are gentle...and faithful to the Magisterium...so they won't prescribe or do anything that could potentially jeopardize a future little one...or nursing children.
Their number is 6901 Mercy Rd #130, Omaha, NE 68106
(402) 390-6600
I will pray for you. Please pray for me.
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I will be praying.
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Well, I've had a lot of ups and downs the last few weeks. I've tried calling Dr Hilgers clinic and they said to email and when I emailed they told me to call! so I'm going to try again.
Thanks for the links. I actually saw these some time ago and read your blog through a month ago. I do take vitamins and try to care for myself...I'm not doing "nothing" about it.
You are very kind to reply to me. Thank you so much.
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Keeping you in prayer. May you receive the help you need soon.
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